DISCOVERING MY PURPOSE THROUGH GOD'S GUIDANCE

¨Discovering My Purpose Through God’s Guidance¨

For as long as I can remember, I’ve always been set in my ways. Routine and structure were my comfort zones, predictable, reliable, and mine to control. I knew who I was, or at least I thought I did. But somewhere along the way, I lost my grip. The question, “Who am I?” started to echo in my mind, louder with each passing day. It wasn’t just a fleeting thought; it became a relentless search, a journey I seemed to circle back to over and over again.

In December 2022, my husband and I took a leap of faith and immigrated to a new country. It was a fresh start, but also the beginning of where I needed to grow. For the first time, I was truly alone away from everything familiar, every person and place that had defined me. In this new place, stripped of my routines and the comforts of home, I found myself exposed. I wasn’t just hiding behind nothing; I felt like I had nothing. No one to lean on, no sense of purpose, just me and my thoughts and questions.

My husband was busy providing for us, working tirelessly to support our new life, while I was drowning in my own uncertainties. I felt guilty and ashamed for feeling lost when I thought my struggles weren’t as significant. I didn’t know who to talk to, who would understand the difficulties I was facing. It felt like my heart was undergoing surgery, cut open, raw, and vulnerable. And that’s when I turned to God, not with the polished prayers I was used to, but with desperate, unfiltered conversations.

It wasn’t just a one-time talk; it was an ongoing dialogue, heart-to-heart with the only One who truly knew me. The more I poured out, the more God revealed. It was as if He was peeling back layers, showing me truths I had long buried. For the first time, I wasn’t just talking to God; I was listening, and in my vulnerability, He met me right there. I realized that God never leaves us nor forsakes us. He is ever-present, even when we feel most alone.

Through these raw and honest moments, I started to see how God was reshaping me. I learned that He is not just the God who heals and restores others; He is my healer, my restorer. It’s one thing to believe in God’s power for others, but it’s something entirely different to trust Him with your own heart and your own mess. Although I still fall short and allow the enemy to question my true self, I will always know that God has my back and that this is an ongoing process. I have seen Him work miracles, not just around me, but for me. He is transforming my brokenness into something beautiful. I hope to keep sharing with you what he does in my life and how he keeps revealing beautiful things to me.

God is good, even when life feels uncertain. He is Jehovah God, who brings life, who heals, and who restores. He is my Savior, and without Him, I am lost. This journey isn’t over, and I’m still learning and growing. But now, I know that with God, I am never truly alone. He is here, guiding me, molding me, and reminding me of my purpose. And for that, I am eternally grateful.